It seems like an absolutely awful idea right now. It seems like the worst possible time, when you're mourning someone you love who left, and mourning someone you love who's still here but mad at you, while none of us are really in our right minds.

[He would not have put it in that way, but it's honest, so fuck it.]

But you knew that already, so you asked that knowing I would answer in the negative, because you hate yourself and want to wallow in the feeling like you've convinced yourself nobody wants you.

Which I don't really appreciate. By the way. I am not a rock to bash yourself against.